tearsfallingdown

Whenever I see DongHae talks bout his dad,

My tears would automatically fall down.

I know how it feels like to be away from family.

I only get to see my family on the final school holiday,

It was in mid nov until late dec,

On Jan, I have to back to school,

And wait until the next school holiday,

There Is a holiday when i come back home on early Oct,

But, I only stayed home for 5 days.

Whenever I came back home,

They always treat me badly,

Especially my brothers.

I also don’t get to see my mom & dad often.

They’re always busy with something.

On my birthday,

I would call my home,

But sadly,

The only one who wished me ‘Happy Birthday’ was my little brother.

He has always been there for me.

He would listen to all my complaints.

My mother doesn’t care much bout me.

She doted on my little sister.

She’s already 11 years old (4 years younger than me),

But, she doesn’t know to do the housechores yet.

I always wanted love from my mom.

When I was little,

My aunt is the one who took care of me

From when i was born until I’m 9

I live with my aunt.

But, my little sister has been by my mom side since she was born.

My mom also sent me to boarding school.

I told mom that sis should also go to boarding school when she’s 13.

But, my mom refuses.

She said that my sis need mom by her side.

So, do I not need you by my side?

Whenever I call you,

You would always hung up first because you said that you were busy.

Don’t you know that I wanted to say ‘I Love You’ to you mom.

I haven’t said those to you since I’m 12.

That was the first and the last you’ve heard from me.

I just wanna say I Love You, Mommy.

Those four words are the words that I wanted to say to you.

But you never listen to me.

Always with sis

The feelings from my heart,

When will the pain go away?

When will my heart be cured?

I will love you forever, Mommy...